Checked Premises

So, Seth told me to watch the show Girl Code…

I have not stopped laughing.

Well, only been two days since he left. I’m trying to find stuff to keep me busy. It’s getting easier, but harder at the same time. We are in constant communication which eases it, yet it also makes me miss him so much. Especially when he tells me how much he misses me and talks about us together and such.

He did tell me that he doesn’t think he’ll be up there longer than expected. He said perhaps as little as 60 days - which would be perfect (that would be when I got back from Europe). But I’m not going to get my hopes up… I did that last time he was out of town.

Until then though, I just have to keep busy and deal with it the best I can.

Welp, dropped Lolls at the airport a bit ago. Super bummed, got choked up, tried not to cry, hated it. 

These past 5 months with him being back home, and especially these past 5 days, have been great with him. Like, just seriously great. After never really returning the sentiment, I finally told him that I love him… yeah… that’s huge for me. But, it’s true. But, it also makes him leaving for another few months incredibly hard.

At least he’ll come in every month… it’s still hard though.

I guess I’m just going to focus on planning the trip to Europe and turn my attentions elsewhere (or try).

I just feel lost…